Have you ever had a moment when someone has done something so precious for you and you just don’t know how to respond?
This happened to me yesterday. I was talking with a lady i don’t particularly know very well, she’s a pastor at a church I go to sometimes, but felt to confine in her To share with her my current struggles with anxiety and depression. But to particular share about my struggle with the medication I’m taking.
Anyway, so here is the bit that made me cry. She looked at me in my mess of emotions and struggle and said that she was going to walk with me, support me and take me to see the a doctor. And I cried.. I cried because it’s beautiful to feel worthy, precious and cared for. (I have a lot of great friends and family that care for me, thank goodness!) When she said it she expressed it as an act of unconditional love, she didn’t know me, she had no obligation, it didn’t benefit her in anyway.. I’m a fairly independent person, but she poured out unconditional love.
I found myself thinking of ways to repay her for being so generous and caring. I struggled with the simple fact that she was taking time out of her life to care for me. But then I began to remember a talk i heard on unconditional love.
What I remembered from this talk was that unconditional love was love with out a condition, we all know that. but the thing that struck a cord in my heart was this: When someone loves us unconditionally and we feel like we need to repay them, it means that we give our love out with conditions. We expect that the favour would be returned to us in equal level that we gave. We can tally up how many times we have given love, compared to how many times we have received from someone and hold back our conditional love because they haven’t given at the same level as us.
How often do we give out love and expect a return? how often are we disappointed by the lack of return? why do we tally up how much love we have given to a person?
I want to be a person who gives love to people in whatever way I can in my capacity without condition. To love fearlessly, intentionally and unconditionally. What a world we would have if people loved without condition. It doesn’t mean that people can drain us, run all over us and use us, but its knowing how to give and how to receive love.
Side note: I did say thank you to her 100 times when she took me today, and totally honour her for who she is.
Much Love (without condition),
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonour others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”
-1 Corinthians 13:4-7New International Version (NIV)